Monday, March 28, 2005

nervous.

I just emailed two people at the agency that is my purported fellowship sponsor. My proposal is still 30% too long (eeek) but it is now 33% of what it once was. So I've boiled it down LOTS. Anyway, I figured I should email them the proposal to see if they were still ok with me poking around like that. There's a chance that this won't even get past them. So I'm nervous. Why am I so nervous? I think I'm nervous because it's my very own brainchild. I mean, I am modeling it off a previous position I've had, but still, it took substantial research and poking around. I'm creating a position and hoping that it sells. If it doesn't sell to the agency then yikes. I'm afraid it might be too controversial. But this is the first step. We'll see what these people think of my creation. What if they hate it?

2 comments:

moi said...

I wouldn't be nervous. After all, they approved your position and are providing funding. As long as it isn't something extremely controversial, I wouldn't worry.

WomanoftheLaw said...

Welllllll... they agreed to "explore the possibility" of developing this idea that, months ago, was much more vague. The funding comes from someone completely different. So I actually have to sell TWO people on this idea. I think the sponsor agency will be the easy one - they get free labor. But there's always the chance that they don't want to be the ones responsible for my muckraking.