Thursday, December 29, 2005

if you tell anyone else you're so dead to me

I have been avoiding chronicling it, I won't admit it, and I usually chalk it up to just being 'moody.' But after going out tonight, meeting with friends, doing new things, having a really good time, I've come back to the quiet solitude of my room and found that I can't escape what is, at this moment, my truth:

I'm unhappy.

9 comments:

Sancho said...

Really? Is it missing the previous law school life (friends)? Is the work not what you expected?

Very curious.

Sparky said...

*hugs* I've been told Sparky hugs can cure just about anything! ;-)

I'm here if you need to talk.

Mirriam Seddiq said...

Well, what's next?

Mr. Vasquez said...

aaah, I do feel the same way most of the time. I’ve been told that I suffer from depression, don't know if it's true since I don't dare see the doctor. It is hard, I'm sure but hey you're at a point of your life were a lot of people would like to be, like me.

To tell you the truth I don't know if I will be accepted to the Law school that I want, or even yet, I don't know if I am actually going to score high enough on my LSAT, or lets say I do make it to law school, I hope I can cut it while I’m there. Ok lets extend it some more, let say I make it, an I become an attorney, is that going to be enough? am I finally going to be happy? or is all this college crap that I am putting myself through worth the effort, am I doing all this for my future wife and unborn kids?? What is the point of all this madness? The obvious answer is to do it for yourself. I think a lot about this stuff and I can’t come up with an answer, so what I do, I just keep going like if I have a purpose and hopefully once I get there it will all be worthwhile. At this point being an attorney sounds very exciting and awesome, I’ve read a couple of books, and I love to put up a good fight with the different ways I can interpret something, so that is my motivation for now, heck that’s my only motivation. But for you I think you should rethink everything and go deep into the essence of it all and find out what really makes you happy and I am sure once you find it, everything will be ok.

Anonymous said...

Cdog: You are all tools.

WomanoftheLaw said...

to cdog: come on now. shut the fuck up. wen did you become the tool who trolls websites to call everyone else losers?

Blonde Justice said...

I may not have a lot of great advice, but you know you always have me to talk to! At the very least, I'm good at listening to venting!

Pepper said...

Keep going.

Just remember that in the new year you'll have great drinks and great desserts and great sex.

Be like me: focus on loan repayment and think about changing careers.

WomanoftheLaw said...

I know you're good for the desserts, Fresh, but where am I going to get the great sex?