Tuesday, July 17, 2007

every day, I realize...

... that Sanchovilla is the only person who reads my blog.
 
... that I'm capable of doing good things in my job.  I've been filing motions like a madwoman, and I have piles and piles more of them to write, but you know what?  I'm winning at least half of them so far.  That's a damned good batting average.  The rest of the ones left to file - those are going to be late.  Because damnit, I need a mental break.
 
... when I'm not burnt out, I do very well with clients.  With people in general.  I charmed my way through prison last weekend, and let me tell you, I've never been such a successful flirt.  Who knew corrections could be so pleasant?  And my client was grateful for my visit and my concern.  I'm so glad I made the trek.  Last week, I managed to de-escalate? communicate with? an incredibly difficult client who has some undefined (and severe) cognitive issues and get him to agree to treatment.  And I may have even convinced the judge to sentence him to treatment, instead of the prosecutor's recommendation to the maximum sentence. 
 
... that the disrespect, derision, disgust, and dehumanizing manner in which others regard my clients is my greatest catalyst (followed closely by my own dorky interest in criminal and constitutional law).  I don't always enjoy my clients' company, but I'll snap quicker than a GlowStick if someone tries to strip them of their rights, their dignity, their humanity.  Alas, I'm not particularly eloquent or sharp-tongued when I'm pissed - but I spit fire.  Don't fuck with me, and don't dare, DON'T YOU DARE, fuck with my client. 
 
... that wanting to avoid the 'lows' of relationships is a totally valid reason to have avoided them so far.  It makes me feel yucky, this uncertainty.

18 comments:

judgment proof said...

I am not Sanchovilla and I read your blog. I would read it more if you posted more.

Skelly said...

I'm not Sancho, I'm just hiding out reading your Bloglines feed. Post as often as you like, I'll read it.

Frolics and Detours said...

I read through Bloglines, so I don't show up in your numbers. I am out here though :)

E. McPan said...

I was going to write in and say that I too, read your blog, but I felt a bit "I am Spartacus"-y, so I'll just say I love the quote "I'll snap quicker than a GlowStick."

Ben said...

I like your blog. I'm another lurker; I read with Google Reader, so I don't show up in your stats.

R said...

I am another long time lurker here. Love your blog, you write so beautifully and sincerely.

Audacity said...

Yep, I read it in bloglines as well.

Baby Lawyer said...

who's sanchovilla?
-love, yet another lurker

Scheherazade said...

I'm another Bloglines reader.

The uncertainty is just the other side of the coin that brings you butterflies when you're with someone you like. It's how you know you care.

Sanchovilla said...

Ug. I can actually feel the typeface oozing with, "I am so frickin glad I'm not Sanchovilla because he's a giant F*cking tool."

I am by the way.

A tool that is.

Oh, and I'm stealing yet another one of your quotes... you know the one.

"I'll snap quicker than a Glowstick."

Lovely. Just lovely.

I actually might change it around to better suit my needs but I haven't decided if screaming through clenched teeth, "I will snap you like a Glowstick!" It would either scare the bejeezus outta someone or cause them to die laughing.

Damn, I shoulda saved this for my own post.

Windypundit said...

Hey, I read your blog like a friggin' stalker!

Blonde Justice said...

Hello??? Have you forgotten your biggest fan?

(And by that, I meant me. Of course.)

Angry Pregnant Lawyer said...

*raises hand*

I read your blog.

Gideon said...

Add me to the list. I count for two.

Impleo Me said...

I read it too. Have for a long time... back when my blog was named something else.

:)

Melissa said...

read through google reader.

Melissa said...

I read your blog. And now I'll comment more often.

Leigh Anne said...

I ain't your Sancho either and I read your blog!

Hell, sometimes I think you and I might have been living the same life - or at least having non-relationships with the same dudes...